Losing Libby

Anywho - I'm back. Sorry for the lack of posts the past few days...I went to Dunkirk Tuesday and then Rochester Wednesday for a few hours, and man, was I tired. I have to give myself a little slack, as I just had surgery three weeks ago, and am still recovering. Walking around for more than 45 minutes is a little tiresome, but I am getting better I think. My body is definitely changing, while unfortunately, the number on the scale is not. I am at a bit of a stall, and was actually encouraged from my online buddies to up my calories. I was averaging about 500-600 calories, and yesterday I had about 850. I am hoping that my body will get out of starvation mode, and get back into losing mode. I am going to take a walk today also, as it is one of the few nice days apparently that WNY is having. Hooray! Next weekend we are traveling off to my future in-laws! I am excited and hope that "pouchy" behaves herself. I would like to go into NYC, and hope that my legs and ...

I survived pizzagate 2009. I even chewed the crap out of a piece of chicken wing that I peel the skin off. I survived, and I will survive even more temptations. The company sure does out weigh the food. I just read my friend Donna's blog ( and thought about her latest entry, regarding things in life being more important than food. It is so true, that sometimes we lose perspective on life when we are so concerned about something that is so trivial. I think denial played a big role in my weight gain. I never thought of myself as a food addict, or obsessive about it, but in the recent weeks, denial is definitely rearing its ugly head. Its a hard item to come to terms with. Today I am on a mission to get more Nectar. Nectar is a fruit based protein drink that I find more tolerable at this point, over the thick, milky shakes. So far today I have had a nectar (fuzzy navel) with 24 grams of protein and some greek yogurt. A good start to the day. Today so far has been pretty l...

So I live in Buffalo, NY. Home of the chicken wing. Yes I said it, chicken wings. About a week ago, I was at my parents house hanging out, and we ordered pizza and chicken wings for my boyfriend and them... and then...the worst happened: I cried. I friggin cried over food people, and I feel like I may do it again, in front of my future in-laws! I find it completely amazing and ridiculous how wrapped up I get with food. Tell me, veterans, does it get easier? Getting over food? It isn't getting easier. I am having a damn hard time with food. The best, or worst, is that so far, I have been able to tolerate all of the food I've tried, beans, ricotta, cheese, etc. I even "cheated" and had a couple saltine crackers! The nerve! I am almost three weeks post op now and I'm down about 45lbs. The success obviously outweighs (har har!) the food, but it's still fricken hard. Seriously, whoever said WLS was the "easy way out", is full of...well you kn...

Sweet Jesus How is a girl supposed to start a walking routine when it keeps fricken raining! I knew yesterday was a fluke. Yesterday I ate over 800 calories (HOLY!). That is the highest amount I have hit since surgery, and frankly, I ate too much. I had some black bean soup for dinner, and definitely had more than I should have. I didn't get sick, thank god, but I definitely felt so stuffed. It just goes to show the importance of measuring out your food. Note to self: Measure. Today is cleaning day. It isn't tooo bad around here, so it should be fine. I'll probably post again later when I get sick of cleaning. I want to weigh myself so bad, but I know I should do this every day....fighting the urgeeeeeeeeeee. All's well here though!

So another day is upon me, and I feel like I've done a 180 since yesterday. I feel so much better, want to actually eat, and just over all feel good. I went to the sleep medicine doctor this morning, and it was oh so thrilling. It kind of went down like this: Me: "Hi Doc, I am having trouble sleeping." Doc: "Do you wear your mask?" Me: "Well kind of, but like I said, I am having a hard time falling asleep, so when I finally do fall asleep I don't always put it on" Doc: "well you need to wear your mask" Hey, DOC, are you LISTENING to me! See, seriously, if I could sleep like a normal person, don't you think I would throw that baby on every night, just to appease you? Why yes I would. ANYWHO...today So far I have had a protein shake with some PB, some tuna fish, and some black bean soup. Food is going okay, when I want to eat. So yah! I got a compliment from one of my friends today about how the weight is just falling off of m...

It never ceases to amaze me in the two weeks into this thing, how one day you can feel like a million bucks, and the next, craptacular. I know, I know, you're all saying, Libby, you had major surgery 2 weeks ago today, you're still healing! Blah blah I know. I still don't want to feel like that though! Yesterday I kept thinking I was ready to go back to work, but today all I want to do is crawl back into bed, and definitely not not eat. I don't even want to think about food today, or water. Usually by this time I've had 24 oz. of water and a protein shake. I went grocery shopping this morning to get some things to make my dear boyfriend a nice birthday dinner, and I literally wanted to die at the store. Oh well enough complaining. I suppose this is part of the RNY territory...I have read a lot of posts on Obesityhelp.com about one day your pouch being snarky, one day perfect. Guess today is the snarky day. I have up until today been tolerating all foods I...

And so it begins, my new adventures in blogging. This blog will serve to tell the story of my weight loss surgery adventure. Everyone calls it a journey, but frankly so far, its been an adventure. I will probably post daily. It will include pictures, and it will probably include me crying every once in a while too. It's about my life, and all that goes with my new adventure into the unknown. Anywho - Happy Reading!