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I Will Survive

I survived pizzagate 2009. I even chewed the crap out of a piece of chicken wing that I peel the skin off. I survived, and I will survive even more temptations. The company sure does out weigh the food. I just read my friend Donna's blog ( and thought about her latest entry, regarding things in life being more important than food. It is so true, that sometimes we lose perspective on life when we are so concerned about something that is so trivial.

I think denial played a big role in my weight gain. I never thought of myself as a food addict, or obsessive about it, but in the recent weeks, denial is definitely rearing its ugly head. Its a hard item to come to terms with.

Today I am on a mission to get more Nectar. Nectar is a fruit based protein drink that I find more tolerable at this point, over the thick, milky shakes.

So far today I have had a nectar (fuzzy navel) with 24 grams of protein and some greek yogurt. A good start to the day.

Today so far has been pretty lazy, which I am okay with. I will venture out eventually, but am in no hurry as we are all on laptops, doing our own thing. Yet it feels so nice to be surrounded by family.

I am about to go weigh myself, and to see if I have lost anything. I have been at a bit of a stand still for about 5 days, which is a little sad. I never though I would say this, but I can not wait to start a serious exercise program.

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  1. I'm reading...try the tea I got you! Melisa

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  2. Thanks my friend :) I will don't you worry :) I love the room spray :)

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  3. I know we haven't talked much since the days of Naz... well, MY days of Naz... but I am reading! I love hearing what you have to say, and I can't wait to see what the outcome will be in the end. :) You were always fabulous, but I am sure you will be even more fab once you've lost all the weight you want to. :)

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  4. the dingers are in full support and have crazy bed bath and beyond gift certs. if you need anything to help this road go easier...xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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  5. Greek yogurt and strawberries is the best. That stuff plain is soo sour. And I need to try me this black bean soup you talk of. I do love beans. Beans beans good for your heart... (Come on...I had to!)

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