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April Fools. Har har har...Hi friends. Today was almost 80 degrees out in Buffalo, NY (that I am not fooling about!) It made me want to be running around outside, generally just enjoying the sunshine and vitamin d that comes along with it. It is such a wonderful feeling, very hard to describe, what spring does to me.

Last year at this time, I was getting close to a surgery date. I had my psych eval down, and was just waiting. It was one of the hardest parts, the waiting. Today I can't imagine not being 110 lbs lighter like I am today.

Everyday I get a compliment from someone, and I tell you, it truly never gets old. I just hope that next year at this time I can say I am 200 lbs lighter than I was in July 2009. That is a big goal I think, but I do believe it is attainable.

I am contemplating what to do with my life. Seems like when you go to school, spend lots of money on fancy degrees, all you get is just that: lots of debt and a fancy degree. What is lacking is the passion I once had. I am hoping that maybe I just need a "boost" - hanging out with other therapists in my field, going to some trainings, maybe finally finishing my damn masters degree? One day I am sure I will have it all figured out *eye roll*

I have been cooking up a storm! As most of you know, I'm getting married to the most supportive man ever in May (whoa...soon!) He is such a good sport about my semi-low carb lifestyle, and doesn't complain about doing a lot of taste testing. I registered for an ice cream maker, and one of my best gal pals got it for me! I made Eggy's protein ice cream. It is so damn good...I will definitely be making it with 2% milk next time, as opposed to skim! It will make it more creamy and even tastier. I made Choc. PB and Mint Chip....so forking good.

I am going to try to post some pictures soon, as I guess I am changing. All for good though:)

Talk soon bloggy friends :)

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  1. I feel the hopefulness in your post. It is inspiring. Spring, love, new experiences... all good stuff. Hope your April is full of good stuff.

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  2. yay you're back and happier than ever. marriage is totally the shit, i promise. 120lbs? that so ammmazing. i agree, the compliments NEVER get old.

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