Losing Libby

The truth is...I'm in recovery. The other truth is emotionally, I'm a disaster. I haven't written in here because the truth is, losing libby was originally about weight loss surgery and how much weight I've weight I lost. In the past few months, more emotionally damning crap has happened to me, my family, my parent(s), my brother, and many people in my ever shrinking circle. I am an addict. I am well educated. I live in the suburbs. I have a child. I have serious mental health issues. I tell you all of the ugly in an attempt to hold myself accountable for the things I have done, the things I have put my family through, and most important...what I have done to myself. If you would have told me five years ago or so that I would be unemployed, filing for disability, and doing medication assisted treatment for addiction...I would have laughed in your face and said you were crazy. The truth is, like many other Americans, I'm not the only one. How d...

So another day is upon me, and I feel like I've done a 180 since yesterday. I feel so much better, want to actually eat, and just over all feel good. I went to the sleep medicine doctor this morning, and it was oh so thrilling. It kind of went down like this: Me: "Hi Doc, I am having trouble sleeping." Doc: "Do you wear your mask?" Me: "Well kind of, but like I said, I am having a hard time falling asleep, so when I finally do fall asleep I don't always put it on" Doc: "well you need to wear your mask" Hey, DOC, are you LISTENING to me! See, seriously, if I could sleep like a normal person, don't you think I would throw that baby on every night, just to appease you? Why yes I would. ANYWHO...today So far I have had a protein shake with some PB, some tuna fish, and some black bean soup. Food is going okay, when I want to eat. So yah! I got a compliment from one of my friends today about how the weight is just falling off of m...